I haven't been able to sleep the last two nights. I've been exhausted so I try and go to bed early and then proceed to lay there tossing and turning until my alarm goes off to wake up. I don't know what I'm going to do if they keeps up because not sleeping is interfering with how well I function in the day.

And this is pathetic but I think the reason why I can't sleep at all is him. I just lay there numb trying to figure out what the heck happened and every little thing I may have ever done wrong.

In the Bravery song 'The Ocean' there is one line that goes "Do I wish that I had never known you at all?". I always was confident that that would never be the case. I'm starting to wonder though. Simply because there are plenty of guys I would have been happy with if I hadn't known the difference, that now will never match up.

Please pray for me.