Wow. Well for the most part my sleeping has gotten better. But for tonight I'm so exhausted I'm no longer tired. I've been very busy and joining lots of new things.

I worry about myself and my motives for trying to be apart of so many clubs and leadership activities. They are all good in themselves but I might have too much on my plate. Why do I do this? Hopefully not because it doesn't give me free time to think about not having him. But there's a chance that's exactly why.

Going to see "It's kind of a funny story" tomorrow with Marisa. That's going to be kind of bittersweet.

I need to sleep. Please pray for me. I'm so sad all the time lately. It has to pass soon.